http://humanifesto.org/yehoshanah/2004/paraesthesia.htm

Title: Paraesthesia

i have noticed
 my understanding to be different from others.

i feel a desire
 to share my understandings with others
  - not a feeling for domination though.

i feel i have done well
 to collect and to synthesis various understandings
 - to make my own understandings from my experience.

my journey is a personal one
 - while my context overlaps with yours
   and many others.

i feel a desire
to engage in a larger process of developing my own
- and (at least my sense of) our understandings.

i witness Our Organism.
i consent to Our Experience.

Our This or Our That, sounds mythological
 - perhaps.

so let's use words like understandings and values.

even words like ritual, religion and worship
seem too rigid for most westerners.

some might say about my thoughts -

"when schedule is temple
intentions are worship
value is god"

sounds like a nightmare!

why? i would ask.

it sounds too much like a religious institution.
institutions are full of dogma, too confining.

i like the word sacred, they might say,
 its represents the good and beautiful.

they might say,
i'm against blind adoration.

and if you use religious words like temple
people will assume an overly confining dogma.

Ok - my use of words don't overlap with everyone.

so in respect for these cultural tensions,
lets say between Religion and Science for example,

then ironically also consider New science:
fractal dimensionality,
 energy is information,
  emerging complexity.

i have discovered various cultures within western culture.

i assume they interrelate
- in my understandings and in others understandings.

and what of Globalization of culture in particular?

Human understandings? and the process of sharing values?

Authentic, Spontaneous, Considerate and Improvised.

Learning to Use Key Art Forms.

Moving back and forth
from shared references we have chosen.

Ok this scribble could be better composed
- or scripted you might say.

But I portray my invention.

If we recognize the art of coming to Coherency
- then our language will reflect that process, as Reformatory.

i have thoughts that are reformed as i write them.

what is written is not mine - Not mine alone.

i have engaged in a world that has engaged in me.

writing is not mine but immediately it is of the World.

i have made some impression in my expression - not all.

i am born and become inside the fragmented psyche of "____".

So we have the Myth of "____".

I experience the personal process
 as a shared process - i contribute.

 yet i accept my own emerging self
  as the collaboration of will and consent
  that does not belong to my ego alone.

  who now judges me - my writing?

  since i do collect these scribbles :) to share
  - i ask if i should?

  i ask selfhood and i ask "____"!

  SuperEgo perhaps.

  But to understand SuperEgo would be more difficult
  than to explain Ego!

  I would not expect Freud to have done all that work
   - that Art work, we might prefer to say.

  Never Mind - We say (or slip!)

  i desire to reveal my thoughts
  so open to me please -

  Value seems to be an appropriate term
  at certain (times in) circumstantial uses.

  its that idea of circumstance that i want to address
  - And Value as a term that could address
  wider and deeper layers of understanding.

  Religions speak of and address
   the Attributes and Virtues of Spirit.

  Lets speak of "value" starting from here,
  - from everywhere we now use it, "values" etc.

  the tendency to extrapolate
  to the edge of possible reality
   will show up when it does.

  Ok - lets observe that too.

  if we can relate our tendencies
   and desires and motives
   to values we can recognize
    we can form a multi-logue.

all people that share their use of understandings of values
will also develop an understanding of their sharing process.

we will come to recognize our
 - gates and boundaries
 - exports and imports,
 - our internal relationships,
 - our culture and language
 - and our change.

we will share and contribute to humanity.


yehoshanah
23/1/2004


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